Wow, what a day. Seriously its 11pm at night and it’s just been a 3 hour bedtime comforting session with my girl as she got herself into a right state over what to a grown up seem silly nonsensical things, but in reality to her are things that really really matter. To say I feel like downing the glass of red wine to the side of my desk would be an understatement; wine really is a mother’s ruin and her consolation at the same time.
The day had started off so well; after a lovely weekend getting some extra time with the new man in my life, an exhilarating gym session and a scrumptious Chinese I woke up today ready to take on the world. I woke feeling renewed and made the decision whilst sitting in the hairdressers reading the latest issue of Cosmopolitan magazine to change my blog and give it an overhaul. Gone would be the mummy blogger that I had become synonymous with and out would come the new blog written about the things I love; welcome to the eclectic world of What Lottie Loves.
My good mood didn’t last though and I was like a bear with a sore head by the time my girl returned from her dad’s and I began to get more and more frustrated at the number of things I needed to do in one day to transform the blog. I could have just set up a new blog of course; but then I’d have been throwing away nearly 6 years of hard work on this blog. Giving up all the SEO benefits, all the PR that I’d built up and to be honest that kind of felt like walking away from something that had been pretty good.
An attempt to rebalance my mood making some loom band bracelets failed miserably when after 40 minutes of making a double ladder bracelet three bands snapped in succession and my bracelet was reduced to a stringy elasticated mess that resembled a neon string vest rather than a pretty friendship band. The words bollocks may have been uttered several times – how can elastic bands for 8 year olds be THIS difficult!
Breathe….a quick cup of tea; in fact some rather delicious Twining Gingerbread Green Tea that I’d just found this week in Tesco and things were put to rights. The smell from this tea is beyond amazing; it smells of proper warm gingerbread, it makes me think of sticky ginger loves and big mugs of tea. It’s a proper cup of comfort and put my sanity back in place – thank you Twinings.
Sitting on the sofa I reflected on my What Lottie Loves from today; my beautiful purple lillies coming into bloom, watching Addison use her new digital camera to take a photo of a giant garden snail she was in awe of under the trampoline, the personalised bedroom sign my dad had hung for her today in her room and the fact I’d done something for someone I care about just to show them that.
Today’s emotion was definitely about ‘Joy’; joy of seeing a little smile as I opened the door as my girl hugged me, my heart skpping a beat for getting a little text or having a quiet moment that made me thankful for everything I’ve got around me.